25 yo Melbournian. Born and bred in the shadows of a city called KL. Survives on chocolates, lots of sleep and the comfort of good company. Loves a good laugh, a good book, a good cry, a good movie.

"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love and something to hope for." - Joseph Addison

28.2.04

Thanks YU ANN for a superb dinner last night!! The Thai noodles seriously rocked!! I have a craving for it now! *drools* Any leftovers??

Back L-R: Mel, Yu Ann
Front L-R: Pei Ling, Sui Lin, Pei Shing

Sui Lin, Gavin, Mel, Yu Ann

"Sports do not build character. They reveal it." - HEYWOOD BROUN

25.2.04

To the boy on the train this morning : Has anyone ever told you that you bear an uncanny resemblance to Josh Hartnett? You definitely made the $11, 40 minute train ride into work this morning most interesting. *sigh*

Had the best sleep last night, with the exception of the two calls that woke me up. Clean sheets. Nice fluffy pillow. Soft music in the background. And best of all, my doona - a thick, duck down one. Everytime I move, it makes a nice scrunchy type sound. Very very VERY cosy. AND it was fluffy. I like fluffy things. Pillows, doonas, soft toys, pets - maybe not clothes.
The only thing missing was a nice pleasant dream. I haven't dreamt in awhile, which is very unlike me.

Are our tear ducts somehow connected to our throat? Whenever I drop those miserable drops into my eyes, I get this rusty taste at the back of my mouth half an hour later. It is very weird. This is what Sow had to say about it:

me: Hey, do u know if your tear ducts are linked to your throat?
sow: Is it? So everytime a girl gives a blowjob she will cry ka?

Hats off to you Sow!!

To go or not to go...

24.2.04

I'm still undecided. Need a little push and incentive in the right direction. Cheap tickets would be a plus. Anyone?

"A good deed, no matter how small, is worth more than the grandest good intention" - W.G.P.

23.2.04

Monday blues. Right now, a 2 day working week doesn't sound too bad at all.

Kandy really rocked Friday night, that much I admit! Should have listened to Ben a year ago and gone with him!! I'm sorry Ben!!! Pictures are up on Sui Lin's page.

Weird things happen early in the morning. Driving home at 7 on Saturday morning, I saw a freak accident at Penfold Holden. One Holden stacked on top of another. It must have rolled off the trailer and landed on the display cars. I thought I was tripping bad, but it really did happen!

I've just gotten hold of some interesting news. The bloke that I did some work for not so long ago got fired! That was the guy who really drove me insane with his weird requests, and weird logic, making me waste a whole week changing things around, only to tell me at the end that what he actually wanted was what I originally submitted! Was a bit of a creep too. He had funny eyebrows (they looked like they were tattooed on. Someone thought he was a drag queen by night!) and an extremely eccentric personality. Apparently he got the boot because he wasn't doing any work! Bludger! So, I wouldn't say I am sorry to see him leave.

"You can't win fights; you win people" - P.K. SHAW

20.2.04

I have no ass. I was in the ladies before, dropping some Chlorsig into my eyes. And when I turned around to get a paper towel, I saw it - my ass, or rather my lack of ass! Big hips, but no booty! No ass, and no boobs. I'm feeling rather incomplete! The theory to obtain bigger boobs is to stuff your face till I become a pork chop, and then lose all the excess weight. The counter theory is that just like putting on weight increases ur boobs, losing the weight will shrink 'em and leave you with a pair of saggy melons.

My macro works! I'm so proud of myself! *pats own back*

I'm popping my Vit Cs like lollies! I'm taking twice as much as I'm supposed to. I should go down to Coles and get some proper lollies. I'm thinking Snakes, or probably some chocolates.

19.2.04

I don't even know why I bothered blogging today. The server is down which means I can't post it when I'm done. I'm tired today. Concentration is not my strongest point when I'm tired and sleepy. I've been taking multivitamins, calcium tablets (they smell so much like milk!) and vit C under Mum's instructions. It's probably too soon to make any sort of assessment, but I'm starting to think that all this vitamins are just a scam. I don't feel any better or productive or healthier than I was prior. In fact, I've been falling sick more often now! My conjunctivitis has come back to haunt me yet again. Not a pretty sight.

A friend seems to think that I'm a clairvoyant. I had a dream a few nights ago, and in it, some person was trying to get hold of me on my mobile. And right that moment, I was woken up by my mobile ringing away. Picked it up, and oddly enough, it was the same person who was trying to call me in my dream. Rather freaky.

Had a nice home cooked meal at a friend's last night. Curry chicken and assam fish (I think?). *yum* nothing beats a homemade meal. Tammy, the cutest Jack Russell was the highlight of the night. I will devise a plan to dognap her.

"I don't need a friend who changes when I change and who nods when I nod: my shadow does that much better." - PLUTARCH

18.2.04

It's 4.31pm. My most unproductive hour is from 4-5 every evening. It's when I start to think that I shouldn't start working on anything new because I wouldn't be able to complete it in an hour. I don't like leaving things unfinished. So I don't start on anything and just piss fart around for a whole hour, checking the time every 10 minutes or so! Decided to update a little, coz I got sick of the Excel paperclip help thing making faces at me. It keeps blinking it's paperclippy eyes every now and then, and it has this annoying smirk that I wanna just bash out of it's face.

Malaysia is so dodgy when it comes to banking privacy! I got a call from ANZ Fraud a couple of days ago, informing me that my details were passed on to a 3rd party. So now, I've got to cut up my beloved plastic *snip*snip* Mind you, I didn't go around KL swiping my card in every store. I probably only used it 4 times. Dodgy bastards!

Plans for the weekend : BASS STATION *gasp* yes, me, mel, party pooper of all raves, non-raver of the century is actually gonna set foot in Bass! BUT I still have 2 days to change my mind! But Sui Lin will kill me if i do... hmmm...

"Consider the postage stamp; its usefulness consists in the ability to stick to one thing till it gets there." - JOSH BILLINGS

16.2.04

I wish I was a stamp. Not because I enjoy being licked (you sick bastard), but because I wish I could see things through to the end. I am a quitter. Besides finishing school, and graduating from university, there is not one other thing that I can think of, that I've finished. I called it quits on my music. I called it quits on my ballet. I called it quits on my language classes. I called it quits on my relationship when it got tough. Even my life principles that I held with such conviction in my yesteryears have failed me. It's an almost instinctive reaction to just drop things when it gets hard or tiresome. Yes, it may be that I just like taking the easy way out, but hey, life is hard enough as it is, why go out of your way to make it more difficult.

Had an economical, super delicious pizza for Valentine's dinner. Very nice. The sweltering heat prompted us to grab an ice cream after. We agreed on McDonald's soft serve (they are 50 cents now mind ya!!). The lady being served in front of us was a total pain! She was probably being nice when she volunteered to go get dessert for her mates. But to stand there for 20 minutes, ordering and paying each soft serve / sundae / yoghurt one by freakin one (the point was so she had the right change to give back to each of her mates) was completely anal!! Ended up walking across to Shell where I got myself a super delicious Heaven icecream. The night ended with a romantic movie in - Bad Boys II *haha*

Happy Valentine's Day!

14.2.04

Despite my previous entry about Valentine's Day being unimportant, I would still like to wish all the lovey dovey couples in the world a Happy Valentines. Someone must have read my post and decided that I could do with a little pick-me-up. For when I opened my front door this morning, I found this:

To that someone special, thank you!! It's the best surprise I've had in awhile. And it made my day. *hugs* and *kisses*

Met up for dinner with littlemisstinkles and Sui Lin last night. Headed up to Crown for some grub. Poor Sui looked like she was about to collapse from exhaustion!

"Experience enables you to recognise a mistake when you make it again." - FRANKLIN P. JONES

13.2.04

As requested, I have removed the picture of my eye. It's all healed and well now. And to be quite frank, the picture was making me feel a little queasy too.

Someone please get me the hell out of work. It's one of those days where nothing seems to be making sense. My brain is completely disinterested in what I'm supposed to be doing. They've ran out of chocolates. I keep needing to take a piss every half an hour. I would much rather be at home, under my doona, with a good book, or a good CD.

Feeling lost at work. I have no direction, no goal, no objective. My main aim is to get in at 9, and leave at 5. Everyone thinks I'm the "technical" one, with all the solutions for anything mathematical or statistical. I wish I was half as smart as everyone seems to believe. There has to be someone I can look to when I get stuck, and believe me, I get stuck alot. Maybe I'm in the wrong company. But more likely, I'm probably in the wrong profession.

Do I think what I do is my calling in life? No. The only reason I did what I'm doing was because my parents suggested it. Not knowing what else I wanted to do anyway, I took them up on their suggestion. My interest in what I do, on a scale of 1-10, is probably nothing more than a 5. That can't possibly be good.

I keep getting reminded that Valentine's Day is tomorrow. Yea, OK, so? Won't be doing any fine dining, or going on any romantic outings. Neither will I be expecting flowers, chocolates or a card. It is going to be just like any other fine, 41C, summer day.

Pink eye...

11.2.04

Yes, I have been diagnosed with conjunctivitis. Not the most pleasant thing to have red watery eyes. If people didn't know better, they would think I was up all night and day crying my brains out.

Completed my uni enrolment today. I swear those people need to get themselves organised. Was told to head to the Student Administration building on some correspondence that I got. Got myself there, waited in line for like 20 minutes, and then the guy goes "oh, you should go over to Wilson Hall". @#@%#! I must say though, they have improved considerably in comparison to previous years.

I need to debug an Excel spreadsheet. I rolled myself by sending out an e-mail yesterday at work, to remind people that I can provide Excel support. I was under orders from the boss! Now people call me the Excel guru.. WHICH I AM SO NOT! I can't even write a proper macro!! *eek* I am in trouble.

"The vanity of human life is like a river, constantly passing away, and yet constantly coming on." - ALEXANDER POPE

10.2.04

My eyes are shocking. My right eye is bloodshot. Looks like a burst blood vessel or something. And I haven't stopped tearing all day. I'm troubled. And today, I had to meet and greet the new intake of graduates and be a "buddy". They must think I'm a freak or something! I'm such a lousy tour guide. Had to show a new grad around the office - all 5 floors of it. And boy, was I just as lost as she was!! I don't exactly venture too far from my desk when I'm at work. Nonetheless, it was all good fun. I can't believe they expect us - me , to be a "buddy" to the newbies. I feel fairly new myself! I guess it's all about learning together.

Bend it Like Beckham was my entertainment last night. Despite all the rave reviews I heard from friends who've seen it, I didn't find it funny in any way. I don't recall laughing at all throughout the movie. I think I'm beginning to lose my sense of humour. Or maybe, I just have a weird sense of humour. Just like how I didn't laugh once watching Emperor's New Groove, or Ice Age. Hmm... troubling indeed.

Eugene has got me listening to all these guitar solos. They are actually quite good. Upbeat and funky. Go practise more boy! You could be the next Santana! Or I think Marley's more your thing! *hehe*

I've made contact with Gavin. Hopefully we'll meet up once he's all settled down and doing OK.

"Love that is old never rusts." - GERMAN PROVERB

9.2.04

I was on the train the other day, seated opposite a lady with a bag of bread from Brumby's. What I wanna know is, why do they make them bags for the bread so short? There this woman is, with 1/5th of her bread loaf exposed to all the contamination of crap and germs on the train. I'm sure there is a logical explanation as to why they are sold that way. Ventilation? Because no one eats the crust of the bread? Anyone?

I'm feeling happy today, but in a sad kind of way. Happy because I realise that there are people who probably care more about me, then I do about myself. It's hard enough in this cold world, to find one person who gives a shit. But to have more than one, is to be truly lucky. Yet, I'm sad because I keep taking these blessings for granted. It's true when they say that you'll never know what you've got till its gone.

8.2.04

After several attempts, I have finally managed to download the Buffy and Angel Love Theme. It is the best. Music that can move you from a sad place to an even sadder place is worth having.

There is nothing worse than finding out the reason someone is crying, is you. I would gladly trade places with the person with the tears, than to carry the guilt on my conscience. I realise I am irresponsible. I play the blame game with a natural ease. I need a change.

6.2.04

St Kilda Festival this weekend, anyone?

A foot long wheat bread, hot meatballs, swiss cheese, lettuce, cucumbers and chilli sauce makes the perfect Subway sandwich. I cannot believe I single-handedly gobbled down a foot long sub! I'm such a pig! It's not my fault though. The 6" sub is too little, but the foot long is way too much!

I failed to mention that on my recent trip back to KL, I bought my first ever pair of Vincci shoes. I have a bad habit of NOT wearing in my shoes before I actually wear them out. So, the first few experiences with new shoes are always fairly unpleasant for me. One thing about them Vincci shoes or any other shoes for that matter. Why do they insist on sticking the price tag on the shoe itself? Am I expected to spend 5 minutes trying to tear off that price sticker that just won't come off nicely? Hence, I'm walking around town with my new shoes and a price label stuck to the sole of it. How classy.

I think I am beginning to take a liking for shoes. Shoes are nice. Need to go back and get more shoes. It's too hard to find shoes for myself here. I'm cursed with small feet.

5.2.04

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID!!!

Cigarettes are not a substitute for food. Cigarettes are not a substitute for food. Cigarettes are not a substitute for food. If I keep telling myself that, I think I'll be able to stop puffing away and start eating properly again. I've just had my first decent meal in 3 days. Even served with a side of salad. I am beginning to take a liking to cucumbers. Everytime I bite into one, I feel instantly refreshed. Cucumbers are 97% water I think. So, it's just like biting into water?

Josh Groban is so good. I bought his Closer album for a smashing RM6 while eating chicken wings at Jln Alor. And boy has that RM6 worked wonders. Spent a whole hour just lying on the couch yesterday with Josh Groban blasting on the speakers. I highly recommend it. What would life be without music like this?

Has anyone seen episodes of My Wife and Kids? Now, that is some serious comedy! That, and That 70's Show. My empty weeknights are now filled with an hour of laughter.

4.2.04

Received a letter from VicRoads yesterday reminding me of my driver's licence renewal. I can finally get off my Ps! Which means, I can now drink and drive! *grin*

There was an e-mail in my Inbox this morning that broke my heart to read. It made me realise how ignorant I have become. It's not that I don't care anymore, or that I've forgotten. Or maybe that's just it. I've forgotten. I've forgotten how to appreciate the people around me. The people who care most about me. I've forgotten to be thankful and grateful. No wait, it's not that i forgot, it's just that I forgot to remember. I need to remember not to take things and people alike for granted. I need to remember to tell you that I miss you and that I love you.

But I'm angry. Angry that things turned out the way it did. Angry that you had to make the decision to change everything. Why can't things be how they used to be? I was happy, and I thought you were. But you weren't. And I know that it's not your fault that it came to this. In fact, it's no one's fault. But it doesn't make me less angry. I've lost the security that I always thought I would have. I say that I'm OK but I'm not. I don't know if it's anger or sadness that I feel.

But you know what. I'm gonna be OK. I just have to keep telling myself that I will be. Then, maybe someday I will.

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine

Ben and Mel da camwhores...

4.2.04

I MISS YOU BEN!!!! *MUAX*MUAX*

"The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity." - DOROTHY PARKER

3.2.04

I am in desperate need of some sleep. My eye bags are shocking. I'm thinking that I should start using one of those cosmetic cream things that claim to remove your eye bags.

The long awaited updates on my trip begins. It was mostly centred around Chinese New Year, catching up with friends, and gambling. I think I probably spent 1/3 of my time at a friends place just gambling into the wee hours of the morning.

Gambling session #1 @ Andrew's

Mel & Jit Yen

Michael & Mel - CNY Day 1

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But before all this gambling madness took over, there was the nice formal dinner at Shooks @ Starhill.

Shannon, Mel, Mindy, Jennifer, Sophia, Celyn

Mel & Kwee Heng

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And last but not least, there was the SUPERB lunch at Kampachi @ Hotel Equatorial. We were 45 minutes late but that didn't stop us from stuffing our faces with enough fish to probably last me a life time. The mochi was good shit. I could have had another 5 plates of 'em. After walking Sungai Wang and Lot 10, I could have gone back for another round of Japanese buffet I'm sure of it.

Left front-back: Michael, Michelle, Erik, Elaine,
Right front-back: Kwee Heng, Trish, Eugene, Guy, Mel

Mel & Guy

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I had a blast basically. More pics will be up when I get around to resizing them. It is a pain in the ass.

Not forgetting a SUPER BIG SHOUTOUT to Guy for volunteering to be my designated driver all of the 2 weeks I was back! You are way too nice for your own good!! And for that, I shall forgive you for all your uncalled for 'barren wasteland' comments and probably persuade my dad not to beat you to pulp. I think I probably owe you like a 100 bucks in toll money!!! If you ever get your ass down to Melbourne, I promise to be your slave!! Haha.

And to everyone else: Ben, feefs, Erik, Andrew, Jen, David, Mike, Yen, KC, Kwee Heng etc etc, thanks for making it a blast!!!!

"Once the toothpaste is out of the tube, it's hard to get it back in" - H.R. HALDEMAN

2.2.04

It's back to work. Back to reality. After 2 weeks of total lack of responsibility, it is going to take me a while and a whole lot of effort to get back into the swing of things. Either I'm exhausted or I have totally lost all motivation to work. Everything seems completely out of whack. Went to buy lunch earlier, and instead of giving him $4.40, I gave him $9.40 or something like that. I swear the $2 coins looked like 10 cents!

For some weird reason, my dad decided to go early (for once!) to the airport Sunday morning. He told me that we should leave early so we could grab some breakfast as well. So I agreed most unwillingly (I only had 1 hour of sleep mind you!). We got to the airport, checked in, and then my dad goes, OK, be good and take care of yourself. And there I was dumped at KLIA with a whole 90 minutes to spare. Was too stoned to ask my dad why he left so early, so dragged myself to Burger King and had a French Chicken Deluxe for breakfast. Flight was pretty good except for the boy who kept having to get up to take a piss! I've never met anyone who had to release themselves so often. I swore i got up for him at least 6 times on that 7 hour flight!! Boy, u need some help yo!

Will get up to speed on the highlights of my trip home later. One of them was the whole Bar SaVanh bloggers thing. Extremely overwhelming. The amount of strange faces and not so strange faces was unbelievable. Left fairly early cos it started getting too packed and out of control... Some pictures courtesy of Sui Lin:

Mel & Yu Ann

Sui Lin & Mel

Mel & Cheng Leong

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