25 yo Melbournian. Born and bred in the shadows of a city called KL. Survives on chocolates, lots of sleep and the comfort of good company. Loves a good laugh, a good book, a good cry, a good movie.

"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love and something to hope for." - Joseph Addison

"Perhaps the reason we can never find anything is that it was never lost" - P.K. SHAW

31.5.04

I FOUND IT!! After turning my room upside down, I found the security tag! I can't explain how it ended up in the "secret" compartment of a bag which I didn't even use on Friday. Things are starting to look up. I've almost finished compiling my notes to study this weekend. Got home safely. It is all good. And there is Friends to look forward to tonight!

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I'm having a bad f@#!ing day. Only had 4 hours of not so peaceful sleep. My body clock decided to go off an hour earlier than usual. Seem to have misplaced my work security pass. Ransacked my whole room last night looking for a small, grey plastic thing. Left no stone unturned. Couldn't find it. It wasn't in the bag I used last Friday, it wasn't in the pocket of the pants I wore last Friday, it wasn't in the washing machine, it wasn't in the dryer, it wasn't in ANY bag, it wasn't on the floor, it wasn't anywhere! Decided maybe it got left at work. Driving like an idiot today. Concentration is poor. Drove past the turning that I only take what, 5 times a freaking week! @#$! Can't find security tag at work either! I get shitty when I lose things. Real shitty. Feel like going home now and tearing the house apart to find it. Possible that it might have fallen out of my pocket in the train. My foot still hurts. It's getting worse. Just realised that my exam is next Friday!!!

At least the sun is shining... and I am stuck indoors. Great.

27.5.04

I don't blame anyone for not wanting to hang out with me lately. Even I can't stand being around myself these past few days. I'm nothing but a whinging, bitchy lil girl.

I momentarily lost my cool with a close friend yesterday. Totally uncalled for, and I feel really bad about it. Just a BIG BIG APOLOGY to you (you know who you are!). I know that you weren't cut or anything but it doesn't make me any less wrong. Thanks for understanding though!

I blame it on "the time of the month". That should not be an excuse, I know that. I know my hormones are meant to go wild and fuck up my emotions and all that. But I always like to believe that emotions do not control me. I control them. They should only get the better of me when I let them.

26.5.04

We hear about how anything is possible in America. Anyone and everyone can find themselves in a legal battle, even in the most absurd situations. But it's not just the Americans who are trying to make a quick buck.

I read an interesting article in the MX today. A Chinese man is suing his wife for deceit. He discovered that his wife had plastic surgery done worth $180,000, after she gave birth to 'an ugly daughter'. That is plain abuse of the legal system. Parents are supposed to love their children unconditionally, and what parent would call their own child ugly and sue for that? Imagine how the child would feel when she grew up, and found out that her own father sued her mother because she was ugly? Shallowness at its ugliest indeed.

"I am always prepared to recognise that there can be two points of view - mine, and one that is probably wrong" - JOHN GORTON

25.5.04

I dropped my house keys in the rubbish bin yesterday. @#!$@! Thankfully, it was the recycling bin and not the normal household waste bin! So there I was, in my suit, skirt, stockings and heels rummaging through a bin... and in the dark too! Had to tip the bin over, turn on the car headlights, grab the steering lock from the car and fish the keys out. It was a funny sight.

Dilemma of the day: Should I or should I not, look after this adorable pup for 2 weeks while a friend is away???

24.5.04

Happy Birthday to Nick and Joyce!!

A touch of Balinese

23.5.04

A big shoutout to Elaine for picking out tonight's dinner venue! Located in an obscure part of town, hidden behind an odd plantation of tropical plants, is Warung Aggus, the place to go for some excellent Balinese cuisine. Fairly pricey, but definitely worth it! Steve, the most privileged man tonight, had the pleasure of 8 girls' company, and the inside scoop on all the goss! I'm guessing we won't be seeing him again on another girls outing anytime soon!! My brother has hijacked my camera for 2 weeks, so there won't be any originals. In the meantime, pictures courtesy of Sui Lin:

Mel, Angeline, Mindy, Sui Lin, Gerry, Elaine, Beth, Sau Yan & Steve

Proceeded to invade Cafe Graecos @ Crown with more of our gossip and chit chat. All in all, a most EXCELLENT night with my favourite girls!!

"Constantly talking is not communicating" - JOEL BARISH

20.5.04

I have seen more relationships crumble and fall in the past year than I can possible remember. Not just ordinary, overnight relationships, but relationships that have stood the test of time, that could be measured in years, that gave people hope that romance was still alive. I don't understand how we can wake up one morning, decide that enough is enough, and wipe our hands clean of it all. Do we all eventually get bored of routine? Do we eventually come to the realisation that there are greener pastures out there?

Breaking up isn't hard to do. Moving on is. Easier on some people, harder on others. How do I do it? I hate. There is a fine line between love and hate. All I do, is find a trigger to push me over the line. Call me immature if you must. At least I deal with it. It's one of the oldest tricks in the book. And it usually does the job. I don't hate forever though. Just long enough to numb all other emotions. It takes practise.

HOOBASTANK - THE REASON

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

19.5.04

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI CHEN!!

I've only met this notorious fella about a month ago when he came to Melbourne for a short trip. He was kind enough to import me some Famous Amos cookies, and for that I shall be forever grateful!! Remember to declare it next time!! *haha* Happy birthday boy! Politeness and tea drinking are sure signs of ageing!!

Deadly cache seized

19.5.04

A FRIGHTENING, multi-bladed knife destined for Melbourne's streets was among a cache of weapons seized by Customs yesterday.

WHOA! Those knives look really good! They're like props off the set of Van Helsing or something! And you can actually buy them off the Internet! Impressive. Very impressive.

Troy

16.5.04

Need I say more?! Troy was excellent! Getting to see Brad Pitt looking all HOT and SEXY was well worth the $11.50!!

Defrost @ Room 680

15.5.04

*yawns* Despite how awesome last night was, I shall be taking a break from clubbing, at least until next semester! A big shoutout to the Bass Agents for rocking the house last night! The crowd was fantastic and I had a great time. They were giving away heaps of prizes in the R&B room... none for me tho! Some girl won a car CD player by dancing on the DJ podium. She had a short denim dress on, which was zipped up just low enough to strategically expose her cleavage!! I don't know if everyone was cheering at her dancing, or at the hopes of her boobs falling out! Then there was some other lucky person that won an Xbox!! *grrr*

Ganjaguru

Didjital

Bass Agents @ Room 680

Ben, Gavin, Mel, Richard & Sui Lin

Gavin & Mel

Mel, Sau Yan, Beth & Ella

Ru Hann & Mel

Nick & Mel

The night didn't end after we left Defrost at 4.30am! Headed back down to China Bar in the city for some appetizing lou mai kai! *yum*

Mel & Sui Lin @ 5.30am looking not so awake!

Gavin, Ru Hann & Nick @ China Bar

Will be hopefully posting up a video or two of Defrost soon!! And Troy it is tonight! I can't wait to see Brad Pitt in some steamy action!!!

13.5.04

We are only human, and therefore, we can, and will make mistakes. All my life, I have been told not to be afraid to make mistakes. I have made more than my fair share of mistakes. Some genuine, and some intentional. And each time I realise I've made a mistake, it is always too late. And each time I beat myself up for being so stupid/blind, and tell myself that I should have seen it coming.

Here's my take on this. Make as many mistakes as you need to. It is not about how stupid it is. Heck, if it was smart, it wouldn't be a mistake to begin with. What counts is how you handle yourself after. Have the guts to face up to the consequences of your fuck ups, for that is the way to learn. Don't go hiding in a corner, hoping to go unnoticed, and for things to just disappear as if they didn't happen. Things don't just disappear. People are forgiving. They may not forget, but they will forgive.

I may not agree with what you have done. It isn't so much about what you did, but more of how you handled the situation. I believe that you have it in you to deal with things better. Mistakes are lessons to be learnt. They do not make you a bad person, nor diminish any of the good in you. I do not think any lesser of you, and neither should you. My advice to you is this: If you feel lost not knowing what to do, put yourself in their shoes and ask yourself what you would want done. And if you can't find an answer, ask yourself the same question again... and again... and again, until you get an answer.

12.5.04

How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.

I feel sick. I've just watched the most disturbing video, and now my dinner isn't looking too great.

I've added a comments thing, and updated the Links page as well.

11.5.04

An exciting thing happened on the way back from lunch yesterday. Hopped onto the No. 96 tram to St Kilda Beach on Bourke St. Two minutes later, a scuffle broke out between this young junkie fella, and a Native Australian. All this action, right next to me. The young bloke kept going for more, and he got kicked, punched and shoved to the ground. He had a bloody nose and yet, he couldn't get enough of it. It was funny when he rolled up his sleeves, and started jumping around like Bruce Lee, yelling "Round 2 mate! Cmon! Round 2!" I must admit I was a bit intimidated by the whole scene, especially when it was in such close proximity, but at the same time, I was rather amused.

I have always had an unexplainable fascination for fights. It's not that I am sadistic and enjoy watching people get injured or hurt. It's the mere excitement of not knowing what's going to happen - if anything. The highlight of my night when I go clubbing is when a fight breaks out, especially when it involves people I know. I've been along to fights where there wasn't really one, fights outside the notorious Salt, and fights that involved big machetes and running from the cops. But those were in my yesteryears.

Hence, it would come as no surprise that I have always been a sucker for guys with a "bad boy" type image. That is how it is though isn't it? Good girl falls for bad boy. Just like in the song 'Leader of the Pack'. To avoid any misconceptions, no, it is not because I think they exude so much coolness that I have to leech off them. It is about security and my 'damsel-in-distress' complex. I'm not talking about a guy who slashes people to earn a living and who is all brawn, no brain. What I am talking about is someone who has guts, and who doesn't run at the first hint of trouble leaving me stranded. Someone with brain and brawn.

9.5.04

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

Loving and missing you mummy!

8.5.04

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAU YAN!!!

This chic is well known for her friendliness and kindness. She's truly a friend that you can count on through thick and thin. One of the most genuine people I know, who by the way, makes killer desserts! *mmmm* Mochi! It's been a real blessing to have met you girl!

Dinner was excellent. Loved the dessert and the cake! Great company and great entertainment to compliment it. Nothing tells it better than great pictures...

Sau Yan & Mel (looking tired at 2am!!)

Sui Lin, Beth, Sau Yan & Mel

Back-Front: Gerry, Mel, Mindy & Angeline

Back: Mindy, Gerry, Mel, Elaine
Front: Beth, Sau Yan, Sui Lin

Elaine & Kelvin

Tun, Mel & Lee

All the stoners busy at a game of Weed

There goes 2 hrs and 15 mins of my life down the drain...

8.5.04

Friday night out with Yu Ann, Jon, Gavin and Gavin, Richard, and this .....

Talk about a brain dead plot, wait there is no plot in this show. Its basically a whole lot of screaming, a whole lot of grunting, and a whole lot of baby draculas. Tinkles (Yu Ann) seemed to enjoy the movie quite a bit, although laughing at parts which made me wonder if we were watching the same thing. Richard who was sitting to my left didnt move or say anything during the whole show. Not sure if he was too dumbfounded or just enjoying the spectacle that is Kate Beckinsale. Gavin though summed up the whole night best by just sleeping through the whole ending, way to go champ! My prayer tonight is "Please god, let there not be a sequal to this garbage".

Next up.....

Saturday night, Lola make sure you come this time.

-small ben

"Those whom we cannot stand, are those whom we cannot understand" - P.K. SHAW

7.5.04

Mambo@Velour was a blast! Crowd wasn't as good as the last time i.e no eye candy! BUT, there was a big bunch of us and that made it good. It was a night of letting loose, and total fun and relaxation. Not even a horrid cough and splitting headache could stop me! Unfortunately, the night was cut short by my need to get some rest for work the next day. OR I would most definitely have partied on the night away. Just a snapshot of some of the girls (stolen from Sui Lin):

Beth, Angeline, Sau Yan, Pam, Sui Lin & Mel

"The hardest work is to go idle"- JEWISH PROVERB

6.5.04

Dear Sophia,

I am going to miss you now that you have decided to work in Singapore. Even though I don't see you for most of the year, I'm probably going to see less of you now! It's going to be a pain in the ass trying to synchronise our holiday timetables. I guess I should come to Singapore to see you! *hah* Hope Singapore treats you well though. Remember: keep an open mind!!!

Assignments are a big bore. I hate them. Can't stand them. But somebody's gotta do them. And unfortunately, that somebody has to be me. 3 more weeks of uni this semester and hopefully I won't be stepping back into it for awhile. But I can only keep my fingers crossed.

Today I purchased a CD on Amazon.com. Call me 'ulu', but it is the first time I've actually bought something from them. We shall see how reliable and efficient they are. I am having the Josh Groban - Closer CD shipped to my mum for Mother's Day *awwww*.

3.5.04

Had an excellent dinner with the girls last night - Elaine, Mindy, Gerry, Sui Lin, Sau Yan and Beth. Thai food is HOT but YUM! Sau Yan made the most excellent mochi More please! It was good hanging out just us girls.

I probably have more male friends than females. I find it sometimes easier to have a conversation with a guy. I think it's because guys are just a tad more easy going than girls in general and they always have quite a different perspective on things. And I know that amongst my girl friends, it is not uncommon for them to have more male acquaintances. But no matter how many close male friends I have, they will never ever take the place of my gal pals. It is the girls who will understand why it's ok to be a bitch once a month, and who will know the right things to say at the right time, and who will do the little things that matter. And it is because of that, that I love you girls!

Pot Luck...*food*food*food*

2.5.04

I can't remember the last time I was at a pot luck dinner party. I think the reason behind why I am never invited to one is my lack of culinary abilities. This time around was no exception! I was the drinks & chips gal. Ooh, and we can't forget the ice! *grins* Food was EXCELLENT! Tasty roast chicken, a hearty chicken stew, a surprisingly yummy salad ( I don't eat my greens, so for me to say it's yummy has to mean it was superb!), tempting baked potatoes and garlic bread, and the most satisfying brownies! A big thanks to the people who cooked!!

Yu Ann, Sui Lin, Joyce, Mel & Joy

Mel & Ben (my dormant guest blogger!)

Joy, Ben, Mel, Wei Chen

Yu Ann & Mel

Back L-R: Mel, Sui Lin, Pei Shing, Joyce
Front L-R: Wei Chen, Jonathan, Yu Ann, Gavin

Of course, no Friday night would be complete without alcohol. Embassy bar @ Drewery Ln was the scene of the crime. Note to self: do not recommend Midori Illusion to a certain someone *grins*

Lastly, to Wei Chen, thank you so much for importing a pack of heaven with you!