25 yo Melbournian. Born and bred in the shadows of a city called KL. Survives on chocolates, lots of sleep and the comfort of good company. Loves a good laugh, a good book, a good cry, a good movie.

"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love and something to hope for." - Joseph Addison

"The old year is closing; What's done is done. Look forward to the New Year and let's have some fun!" - PAMELA SUMMERS

31.12.04

After much debate and discussion, our New Year's Eve plans finally fell into place. The boys and I, food and drinks. Let us all be merry tonight! On the menu:

Chicken wings - honey soy & something else
Chicken skewers - honey soy, satay & BBQ
Lamb chops marinated in herb, mustard and honey
Rump steaks marinated in red wine and garlic
40 thin bbq sausages
A small serve of Caesar salad - the boys didn't want any "girlie" food, but me thinks that they might be needing the fibre!
20 baby potatoes coated with butter and rosemary
2 loaves of bread
Drinks
Booze
Chips and junk food (I hope the boys didn't forget this!!!)

*burps*

Goodbye to you...

31.12.04

Thanks for the good times, the smiles, the laughs, the joy, the comedy, the listening ear, the warm advice, the friendship. I will miss you so. Here's a reminder of some of the moments we've shared together.

"You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give" - KAHLIL GIBRAN

29.12.04

If you've noticed, I haven't been blogging much other than the occassional posting of pictures. Not so much because I've run out of things to say, but because:

1. I've been lazy and haven't had the time
2. it's becoming increasingly difficult to scribe thoughts to paper (or internet)

Four days off from the mundane routine i call working life, has been a breath of fresh air for me. Forcing myself back to work today = excruciatingly painful. Every muscle and bone in my body is desperately crying out to be put back to bed. Time check : 12.06 pm. 4 hours and 54 minutes and counting. Why won't this day just end?!

Random thoughts that I should pen down before I forget:

1. Bad dreams. Death. Fire. Suicide. Grief and tears. People I care about. Go away bad dreams.

2. Today, I feel like a stranger to you. Why? Is it me? Or is it you? It's got to be me. Your words blunt. Your emotions stone cold. I miss you.

3. The Last Samurai. Pink bands. Spasms. Angel of Mine. Roses. Why do these haunt me so?

4. Winter has taken its toll on my body. I've been fighting a losing battle with my favourite pair of 593s. They barely make it over the hips. And even when they do, it's only half the battle won. Battle of the bulges.

To my dearest Elaine...

27.12.04

I miss you already!!! It's been almost a week since you've left Melbourne and it's so quiet without you!! *sobs* We've had lots of great memories together here and I just wanted to remind you of them. Come back soon!

My darling ...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

25.12.04

HO HO HO!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS! We had a ball last night. Great food, lots of friends, exchanging presents, charades, drinking - it was all good. Thanks Sui Lin for hosting - the final party before you leave *sob*sob* Let the pictures do the talking...

The fully decorated Xmas tree

Sui Lin (hostess with the mostest!) & Mel

Gavin, Mel & Yu Ann

The girls - Yu Ann, Sui Lin, Mel, Lynn & Joyce

Jack & Mel

Mel & Ian a.k.a tong sui master!

Dylan & Mel

Mel & Jon

Mel & Nick

Mel & drunken Ben

Lee, Mel & Tun

Jack, Sui Lin, Ben & Chew

Steven & Mel

Jack & Paul - awww... such pretty boys

The week before Christmas...

19.12.04

HOT HOT HOT. That was how my weekend was. Saturday was one of those days where you just feel like melting. Me = not a big fan of the sun and the heat. To recap my weekend, company dinner at the Terrace Reception Centre set in the Royal Botanical Gardens was nice. For how much I am disgustingly underpaid, it better damn well be nice. No complaints about the dinner. Met up with my darling Sui Lin later on in the night for a dirnk @ Robot Bar. For anyone who hasn't been there, you should. It's a cosy little place for a drink on a Friday night. Good for a sit down and a chit chat. Not noisy and crowded like most of the popular spots.

Richard, Mel, Ron

Mel & Joe

Sui Lin & Mel - missin ya already babes!!!

Clubbing on Saturday night at Home House in GEELONG! That's right. It's a weird place this Geelong I tell you. Cross dressers coming out of the club; large, rude women asking for a light, and I was warned of the desperados. But considering I got in for free and had free drinks, I can't really complain. I was dragged to the dancefloor, and for the life of me, could not bring my feet to move to "Four To The Floor" and dance remixes of god knows what songs. All in all, a pretty interesting experience.

16.12.04

There's nothing weird about the phone ringing when you least expect it to. What IS weird is when the call is from someone very unexpected. Someone whom I haven't spoken to in almost two years. Not because we lost touch, but because we had a falling out. I am rather suspicious. Must remind myself to be cautious. I've been told that I forgive too easily. But hey, second chances right? But does everyone deserve a second chance? I could sense from our conversation that this could be one of the rare persons who didn't. But, I hope I am wrong. Please, please, let me be wrong. I hope things have changed. I hope you have changed. I hope to forget.

CONGRATULATIONS SUI LIN & GAVIN!!!

14.12.04

The Prayer

13.12.04

I pray that you'll be well,
although I know that it isn't so,
I pray that the pain subsides,
And that the discomfort disappears,
I pray that you wake up tomorrow,
with a smile on your face,
without the suffering,
without the torture,
I pray that the ugly tumour vanishes,
that your liver is healthy,
that your fever recedes,
and that your strength returns,
I pray that you aren't afraid,
that you aren't angry,
I pray for your strength,
and for your courage,
I pray that you do not give up,
and that you fight your best fight,
I pray that you know,
that I am thinking of you,
that I am praying for you,
that I love you.

"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool, then to speak out and remove all doubt" - ABRAHAM LINCOLN

7.12.04

3:00 a.m

*tut doo tut doo tut doo tut doo...*

Me (in a sleepy voice): Hello?
Stranger : WASSSSSUPPP MATEEEEEE?!??!?! WASSSSSUPPP MATEEE?!?!?! (laughter in background)
Me : Who's this?
Stranger : WASSSUPPP MATEEE?!?!?!?!
Me: Hello?
Stranger : *hangs up*

Moron!

Gilligan's

6.12.04

Who cares that this has been deep fried in oil? Who cares about the calories? Who cares that my throat hurts and that I shouldn't really be eating anything fried? Who cares that you have to drive an hour just to get to it? Gilligan's Fish & Chips down by Geelong's Eastern Beach was *YUM*! I had it for lunch on Saturday... and again on Sunday...and if I could, I would have it again for lunch on Monday.

I watched Bad Santa today. To the guy in Cinema 15, row K, who greased me off - what's your problem? I don't care if you sit there listening to your radio/phone, whatever, before the movie. But when someone wants to get past you to get to their freaking seats, then have the fucking courtesy to move. If someone walks right up to your seat, and hasn't sat their asses down on any of the seats to your right, then it bloody means we want to get past you. Don't fucking sit there and stare at me like I have no right to be there. I don't see your name on the aisle, or even on any of the seats - unless of course you're called K8 or K9. It's not like we interrupted you during the movie, or any of the previews or advertisements for that matter. Heck, there wasn't even anything screening then. So if you insist on getting to your seat earlier than the allocated time, then be prepared to move your ass around for people to get through. Bad Santa was good. Go watch it!

"Why is there so much month left at the end of the money?"

3.12.04

My ideals and my principles may seem quirky to some. Illogical to others. But they make sense to me. And that's how it is supposed to be. They are, however, not incredibly strong. They falter from time to time. I let them, and then make up excuses to justify it. There's always a reason. Guilt. Obligation. Seduction. Temptation. Desire. Weakness. Always quick to point the finger at something or someone else for my own choices.
Is it worth going against your beliefs for want of a better thing? Is it really OK to turn a blind eye to your principles to please another? Is it really worth sacrificing your ideals for someone else? Sometimes, I think it is. It's really a give and take situation. The lousy feeling you get knowing you've sacrificed who you are is often offset when you see that smile, when you know that you've made that difference. It really is worth it. That is what I would like to make myself believe.

Happy Birthday Jack & Jaydee!!!

1.12.04

Jack & Mel
Jack = (Sweet + Funny + Warm + Caring + Devoted)
x (Smart + Happy-go-lucky + Balanced + Shy)
x (Makes me smile + Pioneer of the Geelong-Melbourne-Bayswater Express + Often sleepy + Sometimes emotionless)
x A true friend
x exp(Loved).
Happy Birthday sweetie.

Jaydee = Tall + Funny + Intelligent + Tall + Old Friend + Person with the longest name + Tall + Friendly + Sometimes shy + Tall.
Happy Birthday!!!