25 yo Melbournian. Born and bred in the shadows of a city called KL. Survives on chocolates, lots of sleep and the comfort of good company. Loves a good laugh, a good book, a good cry, a good movie.

"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love and something to hope for." - Joseph Addison

27.4.05

If you need something broken, give it to me. In the past week, I have somehow managed to break my phone and my monitor. I have the magic touch of destruction. And now, I'm just plane broke. I am however, loving my new monitor!

"Don't wait for a light to appear at the end of the tunnel, stride down there...and light the bloody thing yourself!" - SARA HENDERSON

22.4.05

Yes. Motivation and Initiative. Two things I need more of. Only because I have none. I have about 5 things left to do on my list of "5 things to do".
I love entertaining the thoughts and plans in my head. My head feels that there isn't enough time to waste in life, and it tells me to explore and do all these things that I should do. My body on the other hand feels that rushing through life isn't how it is supposed to be.
I have been fortunate enough to have opportunities thrown at me all my life, not all taken and not all appreciated. And maybe that's why I feel no need to use any initiative.

I met Jack's parents last week. His mum asked him if i was blood type O. That was new! So i Googled it. The Japanese believe that you can match a person's personality to their blood type. Melanie Shintaku (BellaOnline's Japanese Culture Editor) describes the personality of each blood type:

Type O: "Type O's are outgoing and social. They are initiators (WHAT?!?!), although they don't always finish what they start (hmm.. true true). Creative and popular, they love to be the center of attention (NOT TRUE!) and appear very self confident (appearing is an illusion we create!)."

Type A: "While outwardly calm, they have such high standards (perfectionists) that they tend to be balls of nerves on the inside. Type A's are the most artistic of the blood groups. They can be shy, are conscientious, trustworthy, and sensitive."

Type B: "Goal oriented and strong minded, type B's will start a task and continue it until completed, and completed well. Type B's are the individualists of the blood group categories and find their own way in life."

Type AB: Type AB's are the split personalities of the blood groups. They can be both outgoing and shy, confident and timid. While responsible, too much responsibility will cause a problem. They are trustworthy and like to help others."

Compatibility by blood groups:
A is most compatible with A and AB
B is most compatible with B and AB
AB is most compatible with AB, B, A and O
O is most compatible with O, and AB

19.4.05

Mission Accomplished

16.4.05

Mission of the night: Get Gavin sloshed.
Scene of the crime: Lounge Room @ New Quay
Outcome: Mission accomplished.

"Most of the happiness in the world consists in possessing what others can't get" - JOSH BILLINGS

14.4.05

What do I want, that I can't have, that will guarantee me happiness? How about, a high-paying job with a 7 day weekend? Now, wouldn't that be absolute bliss. So maybe the novelty of it will wear off in about 5 years, but heck, if you're giving me 5 years of happiness (and luxury!!), I won't be complaining. No siree. And if at any point of time, I feel my brain needed some stimulation, I'll play some mah jong, or get out one of those Lateral Thinking puzzle books and think away!

Work's been a little crazy lately with some new developments happening. We're in the baby stages of establishing a Quantitative Modelling Unit, and well, say hello to our Melbourne Analyst *waves*. Anyways, I thought about it and now I completely dread it. The thought of having to deal with numbers and statistics and all that technical mumbo jumbo, which frankly I don't even get, is creeping me out. I never signed up to be a Quant Analyst!

I think I made the wrong career choice. I really do. All this work that I can't do, these exams that I can't pass, these concepts I don't understand. I know, life isn't meant to be easy, but is it meant to be this hard?

I'll take a serve of F for fail with a side of stupidity thanks!

8.4.05

Hopefully, you'll be able to infer, from the above, as to how I went in my exam yesterday! I know I usually say I went horrible after each exam, only because I aim high. I was aiming for a Pass yesterday.

I'll tell you why (seriously, you wouldn't blame me after reading this):
1. Explain the martingale separation theorem and define all notations used *mind goes blank*

2. Describe Schiller's approach to measuring "excess volatility" in investment returns and list the criticisms made regarding this approach *mind stays blank*

3. Explain why the lognormal model is used for share prices and discuss its weaknesses *mind still drawing blanks*

4. Derive the following equation: V(t) = exp[-r(T-t)] E[X(t)|F(t)] *gives up *

When you spend 2 hours in a 3 hour examination concocting bullshit to write onto your answer script, purely because it wouldn't look as bad as a blank page, you know that it ain't going so well.

Guess I didn't study hard enough.

Ru Hann doesn't believe me. He'll buy me a drink if I flunk. A reward for failure? AWESOME! You sweet thing!

Jack says my life has been too good. There's a first time for everything.

I'm not whining ... no wait, I am... but only because I dread the thought of having to study all this crap (see above) again.

It's a new day today. It is Steven's birthday today. Happy birthday punk!!!

23 years OLD!

3.4.05

I wanted to just quickly thank everyone for their well wishes, the phone calls, messages, SMSes, cards, gifts and thoughts. I felt loved! *haha* So, to all of you, THANK YOU SO SO MUCH!

I had a good one. Wined and dined at Savvas in Geelong. A very English (I think?) restaurant, nestled in an old, historical building. The first restaurant in Melbourne that I've been to that requests patrons to switch off their mobile phones, for the sake of other diners. So wined and dined we did, champagne and wine we drank *hiccup*hiccup* and I skipped home happily to find this waiting for me:

GONE IS MY YOUTH I TELL YA!! GONE GONE GONE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOLA !

1.4.05

Only known this girl for about a year. In that time, it has felt like we have been friends since forever. Ok ok i know thats a corny line that everyone uses, but its true! You have truly made Melbourne a better place for me. Thanks for being a friend. Anyway Im glad we met and that you will still be around Melbourne to disturb/entertain me (which does not include injuring my left arm!). Have a good one and dont be shy to give me a ride in you know what, thats in the garage for all the nice things I have said here....

Who says now that good things dont come in small sizes? :)



- small ben